hello again! well i had a very interesting day today at work and just the day in general, sooo here it goes!

i had a client this morning and when he came in he was very up front and i guess you could kinda say "rude-ish" i told him he would have to wait for a haircut since we were all busy.....so he comes back and i ask him "how much to you want taken off" and he says "from here down" (note: this man was overweight) we both laughed and he didnt seem "rude-ish" anymore.....defiantly helped break the ice! so were almost down with the haircut and i say "hows that?" and he is like "great" and i say "perfect"....then he says "there is 2 things in the mirror that are perfection you and me" i laughed thinking "oh my this man is hitting on me EEEK.....he was quite older tooo....awkward but he was really nice! just goes to show you, you cant judge a book by its cover!

Also i went to a Dermatologist today to get my skin figured out....being dealing with acne......which is RATHER ANNOYING, since i never really had it before.....so i've read things about this Dermatologist about how everyone thinks he's rude and has the worst bed side manners......so i was a little nervous about meeting this fella! so i get to this office and i go into the room and he comes in....VERY forward and just gets to the facts no small talk lol and he is actually quite a funny guy very dry sense of humor but i like it! hahaha he said to me "you have any psyhlogical problems??" i reply "no" and he is like "good you can be a happy hairdresser then!" then he ask me if i would be in the sun at all "i said not really" and he is like "good you can stay in your salon happy hairdresser" note: everyone thing he says is in a deep voice and kinda monotone hahaha! then he asked if i could do something with his hair.....then is like "wait a minute never mind...i might not like what you say, i want to keep this a friendly relationship, i might not like what you say" hahaha god weirdest humor but hey it made me laugh! so he writes me up all these perscriptions for antibiotics and cream and stuff to go with the antibiotics and i swear there had to be like 5 things! yikes....oh well....

well that was my day in a nutshell.....who knows what tomorrow will bring....NEVER KNOW?

I WEIGH 219lbs

ok i know, i said was going to write here more often....welll that didnt excatly happen! whooopsie! well i thought i would defiantly give a a better effort into writing on here, i ppprrrooommmiissse this time :) i thought i would deadicate this blog to all those Thick Chickies out there, cuz i am one of you and i think i wanna join a different club....not the "Skinny Club" because that club is snobs! LOL how bout we create a new "club" the "I Love Myself Club" no matter if you are 100lbs or 300lbs if you love yourself come on come all!

So i'm definatly working on getting into this "club" it takes some effort, right choices and some therapy!(personal therapy....not the one you gotta pay a lot of money for haha.) So i was watching Biggest Loser this evening and they brought up something that hit really close to home. There are these 2 contestents Sunshine and O'Neil, O'Neil has been overweight his entire life (most of the people on Biggest Loser are) So anyways.....Sunshine and O'Neil have a very close bond, and Jillian Micheals brought up a good point that they couldnt let go of eachother.....which made feel Sunshine like she had to be like her Dad (O'Neil). Since Sunshine was never independent on her own and always relied on her Dad. So that got me to thinkin' that i have the bond with my Mom (my mom is a Thick Chickie too) I have always liked the stuff she liked and was always attached at her hip! I'm starting to figure out that im not independent.....sure i might pay for my bills here and there but i'm still at my mom's hip regardless! She is the one that keeps me grounded.....and as a kid i probably looked up to her and thought "hey i wanna be like mom" even if it made me overweight!

With that running through my mind i knew its time to get serious.....i have been doing Weight Watchers (lost 8lbs) but i wasnt taking it seriously and my mom called me out on it (damn her she knows me alllllll too well!) so its time for me to re-new my coupon thingys lol and I REALLY REALLY REALLY gotta try to track and eat right....and get my ASS to the gym ;) if god is my witness i will get to my goal weight and when that happens im taking myself on a tropical vacation and wearing my DAMN BIKINI ON THE BEACH! i want someone to be envious of my body.....cuz know one ever has been, i wanna make girls jealous...i wanna experience it! so that might sounf selfish or ignorant but shit give me some credit!! hahahahaha but i wanna keep a little junk in the trunk!

So you know how Jersey Shore has that thing GTL (if you dont know what that means its Gym, Tanning, Laundry.....its what Guidos do) ANYWAYS im gonna make up one for weight loss and i shall live by it .............. GLB.....GYM, LOSE, BIKINI!!! what whaaaaaatttt!

Here's to the next step in the right direction :)

xo